THE WORDS OF MY MOUTH AND THE YEARNINGS OF MY HEART

                 Our dreams, hopes and deeply felt needs are directed privately and quietly throughout the day to the Creator as we communicate with Him -sharing our joys and travails, our hopes and disappointments – often without uttering a word. Instinctively we believe that some of those thoughts and feelings are best left unspoken. Yet, we are taught that our formal tefillos-prayers should be said at least loudly enough to be audible to our own ears. This halachic guideline directs us to verbally express the outpourings of our heartfelt prayers and suggests that we should be attentive to what we say. What is achieved through our audible prayer?

          The author of the sefer Noam Magidim asks why the halacha requires us to utter our tefillos audibly, when the Ari zal informed us that it is sincere inner intention of the mind and the yearnings of the heart that actually empower prayer? If in fact vocalizations are required in order to awaken awe and fear of G-d (Hashem) in the heart of the supplicant then surely, at least, the tzaddik, who always is properly focused, should not be required to utter his prayers aloud. The Noam Magidim explains that audible tefillah is a Divine decree (chok) hinted at in Torah reading (Parshas Chukas -19-1) where we are taught the procedure of  sprinkling the waters of the Parah Adumah:  ”Hashem spoke to Moshe and to Aharon saying: This is the decree of the Torah, which Hashem has commanded, saying: Speak to the children of Israel, and they shall take…” That is to say even tzaddikim like Moshe and Aaron are commanded to speak – ie. – make their tefillos audible. The connection between tefillah and the halachas of the Parah Adumah possibly further suggests that even as the sprinkling of the waters of the Parah Adumah purifies the impure, so also does davening audibly “sprinkle”/anoint this world with the purifying holiness contained within our sincere words and expressions. We all appreciate how fresh flowers and spices have the power to fill their surroundings with their fragrant aroma and how revitalized and inspired we feel upon hearing joyous news or a sweet melody; even more so do our tefillos and brachos have the power to purify and enhance our surrounding as well as ourselves.

         In our efforts to understand the value of verbal prayer, it behooves us to look at another sphere of human endeavor that is credited with elevating the human spirit and that is music. Tefillah shares with music the quality that both were designed to bring joy and inspiration to the world through the means of sound. Of course music that remains in the mind of the composer is not accessible and can have no effect upon another, while prayer that remains unspoken can still have its intended benefits since the Hashem knows well what is within our hearts.  Nonetheless, a comparison between these two powerful forms of expression can be profitable.

Musicians who wish to bring to the listener’s ear those sound sequences that had previously been kept in the privacy of their minds and hearts must evoke the ideal sound that resides within their thoughts and feelings through the vibrations of key and string creating notes and cords.  It is only when the music is played aloud that the musicians can determine whether  the music they have intended and hoped to express was actually what emerged. They can then endeavor to refine the performance so that it comes as close as possible to the perfect synthesis of rhythm, melody and harmonic sound.

How much more so, when we audibly express our prayers, we gain an additional ability to assess and then enhance our efforts through now hearing our inner expression from a vantage point outside of ourselves. Our heartfelt, audible words of prayer and praise then resonant with the rest of creation adding its special uniqueness and value that each of us has been blessed with. May all our tefillos be accepted on High as a fragrant offering (rei’ach necho’ach) for Hashem.  

 

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PARSHAS CHUKAS – DID YOU EVER TRY SPEAKING TO A ROCK?

                

              “Hashem spoke to Moshe saying: “Take the staff and gather together the assembly . . .  and speak to the rock before their eyes that it give its waters . . . Moshe took the staff from before Hashem. . . . raised his arm and struck the rock with his staff twice; abundant water came forth  . . . [Then]Hashem said to Moshe and Aahron, ‘Because you did not believe in Me to sanctify Me in the eyes of the children of Israel, therefore you will not bring this congregation to the land that I have given them….”.(Chukas: 20:7-).

               Let us ask what can we possibly learn from this episode that we can apply to our lives today, especially because about forty years earlier Moshe was actually asked to hit the stone as it is written: “I (Hashem) shall stand before you by the rock in Horeb; you shall strike the rock and water will come forth from it and the people will drink.”  (Beshalach 17:6)?

               The following moshal will hopefully address this question at one level: When a child runs out into the street without looking to see if it is safe, the proper and loving course of action is to hit his child just hard enough so that he will remember not to do such a dangerous thing in the future.

                However if an adult who is capable of understanding “cause and effect” relationships, jumps out into the street without looking, a more effective approach would be to speak to him rationally pointing out the potential deleterious consequences of such actions.

                   Perhaps, we can therefore learn from these two similar events a very profound lesson: What was appropriate for our fledgling nation to see and experience, at the beginning of their forty year spiritual metamorphosis, was Moshe’s hitting the stone with his staff in order to bring forth of water. This course of action, although still clearly a miracle, at least had the trappings of a physical “cause and effect” relationship of the hitting the stone causing the water to flow from it.

                 However after nearly forty years of spiritual “education” our nation had reached the exalted level to well realize the spoken word alone, especially words of Torah and tefillah, have power to override natural cause and effect, as in this case of bringing out water from a rock through the power of the spoken word.

                    Also there is to wonder why a stone was specifically chosen to facilitate the miracle rather than some other entity like a tree? Perhaps from here we can learn that if a rock which has no perceivable life force can bring forth a wellspring of water, how much more so can any person even if they appear to have a “heart of stone” can become a “wellspring” that brings forth for effervescent mitzvos and good deeds.                 

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TO FLY OR NOT TO FLY

 

                                         
         We mortals make our plans and set up our schedules to the best of our abilities, but we never know what is planned for us from Above. Not only are we unconscious of what Hakadosh Baruch Hu has in mind for us, but we don’t even see the hidden potential locked within our deeds and decisions.

 

Even with the benefit of hindsight, we often miss the opportunity to perceive the Divine guidance in our lives.  Occasionally, however, Hashem parts the curtain and we are permitted a glance at the “larger picture” from the Heavenly perspective. This past Sukkos we became more aware than ever of the Divinely synchronized timetable that underlies all of our worldly decisions even though at first they may appear to be merely the product of our reasonable responses to constraints of time and circumstance.

 

This story actually began thirty-six years ago, when I was a young yeshivah bachur learning in Eretz Yisrael. A wonderful tzaddik by the name of Rav E. invited me for the first of many ensuing Shabbos meals at his home in Bnei Brak. That meal led to a lifelong friendship/mentorship, and Rav E. and his Rebbetzin became my surrogate parents in the Holy Land. They provided me with a warm Yiddishe home and a strong guiding hand as I proceeded along through life’s various milestones.

 

Upon making Casana, Rav E. and his Rebbetzin graciously prepared one of our sheva brachos and in our many years living in Eretz Israel they partook of every one of our family simchas or occasions of importance. Both he and his Rebbetzin were always available to us as a source of practical as well as hashkafic guidance.

 

Now some thirty six years later while living in Chutz LaAretz we planned to spend Sukkos in Eretz Yisrael, mainly to be with some of our married children and grandchildren who have settled there, along with the pure spiritual uplift one derives from being in the Holy Land at this time of year.

 

As with just about any travel plans, this one was not without its unplanned extra cost in time and money. At first, due to the few flying days between Yom Kippur and Sukkos this year, we found that all the airlines that fly to Eretz Israel were booked solid. One morning shortly before Yom Kippur our travel agent called to say that he had a couple of cancellations in hand, and he could now offer us a booking. Wonderful, right? The catch was that even if the plane were to arrive on time, which is a dangerous assumption at the best of times and certainly could not be counted upon in the holiday rush, the flight was due in at nine in the morning on Erev Sukkos.

 

I felt that this was cutting it too close, but somehow I managed to push away my fears because this visit to the Holy Land was truly important to us. The next day, however, when I called one of our sons in Yerushalayim and told him of the cancellation and my decision to book the ticket, I found out that the summer clock had already changed to wintertime and candle-lighting would be well before five o’clock. My hesitation and apprehension about taking that flight intensified, and with a refortified conviction not to take any chances with possibly desecrating the Holidays, I cancelled the booking. I explained to the agent that I would only book an earlier flight if one became available.

 

The day after Yom Hadin the travel agent phoned me with the good news that a few seats were now available on an earlier flight with a different airline, but I would have to pay an additional four hundred dollars. This was a stiff penalty for me, but in order to travel with peace of mind I agreed. Now the only detail left to settle was the return flight. The new ticket had a return flight a day later than my original ticket. Well, we thought, if we are paying extra anyway, we will stay an extra day in Eretz Hakodesh by way of compensation.

 

Baruch Hashem, all went well. We arrived well before Yom Tov and enjoyed a particularly uplifting chag with family and friends. However, on the morning of isru chag (our original departure date) we received a heartbreaking telephone call to inform us that our beloved Rav E. had suddenly passed away that morning. The levaya would be held a few hours later.

 

Only now did we begin to sense and appreciate the hashgachah that caused us to stay an additional day in Eretz Yisrael. We were able to attend the hespedim, the kevura and even be menachem avel with this tzaddik’s bereaved family. My beloved mentor had years earlier walked me down to the chuppah, and now, thirty-six years later I was privileged to escort him to his resting place.

 

The four hundred-dollar fine I had to pay for changing our tickets may have seemed costly at first, but relative to protecting the sanctity of the Holidays and the zechus of doing chessed shel emes, it was worth every penny and was, in fact, a timeless investment. The Creator of the universe is not only there for us “steering the wheel” of our destiny the right direction but He also provides for all our needs, as you will see when I tell you what happened upon our return to the States.

 

Awaiting us was a letter from the tax department) with a check inside, explaining that a correction had been made in calculating our taxes and they were now sending an additional refund. Believe it or not, the check was almost to the penny four hundred dollars.

 

We know the Creator has many ways and multiple shelichim via which he can recompense us for our good deeds. The Sages have clearly informed us that from the fulfillment of mitzvos we never lose out; we only need Heavenly assistance to see the connections.

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LEK LEKA OR SHELAH LECAH THAT IS THE QUESTION

 

                  Isn’t it interesting the similarity between the opening words of this week’s Parsaha Shelah leka which is the tragic story of the meraglim commanded to spy out the land  of Eretz Israel and the Parsha of Lek leka which is the glorious story of Avraham Avinu when he was commanded to go from his land, relatives and fathers house “to the land that I will show you”  which is the same Eretz Israel.

                The episodes of Avraham Avinuv and the meraglim represent the quintessential inner battle that each of us experiences when we are faced with “giant” challenges. There is the meraglim’s conditionally calculated pragmatic side of us that lobbies for a profit/loss analysis to see how beneficial the proposal is, and then there is our soul’s perspective which is steadfastly ready to follow the banner of Hashem without conditions or reward.  Perhaps therefore these two stories can be seen, within their open words of: “Shelah leka” – “send (in)to you” and “Lek leka” – “go (in)to you” as our prototype “battle” that confronts us whenever we attempt to “conquer” our inner “psychological foes”.

            Who are these “giants” and how can we overcome them? These “giants” are all of the conscious and subconscious illusions and delusions that fester within our corporeal “psychic fortresses and emotional garrisons” which conjure up futile worrying and toxic doubts within the fertile “soil” of our “minds and hearts”.

                Avraham Avinu’s  and the meraglim’s journey into Eretz Israel are the stories of our microcosmic and macrocosmic souls entering into higher realms of holiness. Avraham Avinu symbolizes the essence of our pure soul, whose “armaments” are emuna and betoken which are launched from the “platform” of the Torah, whereas the meraglim are emblematic of the sophisticated intellect whose “weapons” are rational discernment which are created from the launching pad of self-determination. Therefore the souls of Avraham Avinu, Yehoshua and Calav saw the “giant” foreign influences as inconsequential, while the meraglim saw themselves as grasshoppers in a world of “giants”. Therefore instead of feeling like helpless grasshoppers when we stand before “giant” barriers, we should use our spiritual “legs” of emuna and bitokin to hurdle over any obstacles that are sent our way.  

             When Hashem gives us Torah directed opportunities to strive for a new level of kiddusha, as was the case in entering Eretz Israel – we should neve allow worries and doubts such as we are too old or too weak or too poor or too busy or too late or it is too much bother but instead react like Kalev and Yehoshua that if Hashem wills it, we are never too old, too weak, too poor, too busy, too late and it is never too much bother.

                    

               

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OF GIANTS, MEN AND GRASSHOPPERS

                          

“There we saw the Nephilim, the sons of the giant

                        from among the Nephilim; and it came to pass that in our eyes

[we were] like grasshoppers, and so we were in their eyes.”  Bamidbar, 13:33

 

The military reconnaissance of the Land presaged a battle that  appeared hopeless as it would pit  the weak and small  against the strong and mighty. The spies – meraglim – in  answering the questions posed to them upon their return, seemingly did no more than state the obvious danger;  yet we know that they committed a grave sin in so doing.  What can we learn from this tragic event in order to avoid the errors of the meraglim?

 

The first step is to understand the nature of their failing.

The commentators acknowledge that the meraglim recognized  Hashem’s power but suggest that the spies thought that Hashem was going to limit Himself and act in accordance with nature and therefore B’nei Yisrael would be unable to triumph.

 Yehoshuah and Caleb, men of complete faith, demonstrated what it takes to remain men – anashim – even in the face of  vastly stronger and more powerful enemies. Yehoshua faced the distraught assembly that was weeping and entreating Moshe to return to Egypt and told them a simple but profound truth.  He did not deny the obvious size and strength of the giants, but exhorted that “If  Hashem is pleased with us then will He bring us into this land  and will give it to us . . . and you , you should not fear the people of the land for they are our bread; their protective shadow is departed from them as G-d is with us . . . “ (Bamidbar 14: 8-9).

           It all depends on the lens through which we view the test. The meraglim saw the inhabitants of the land as being too daunting and the land as being unconquerable, because they used their own personal discernment, Yehoshua and Calav viewed the inhabitants of the land through the lens of daas Torah and thus perceived them as presenting no meaningful obstacle.  

   Unless a Jew sees himself as a representative of G-d who is All Powerful, he will see himself  not as a person facing his adversary, but rather as a “grasshopper” facing a “giant”. The way in which we perceive our relationship to  Hashem is the deciding factor in how we view ourselves.

 Referring to the spies’ encounter with the giants, the  Torah says “vanehi b’eineinu k’chagavim” and   “and in our  eyes [too] we were like grasshoppers.”  “Nehi” connotes weeping or crying and suggests a diminished, disheartened and despairing emotional state.  Although the  meraglim were initially described as ‘anashim’  righteous men — heads of the tribes of  Israel,  their lack of faith now surfaced transforming them to lose their exalted status.  

As is all too apparent from our experiences during this long difficult galus, if our belief in Hashem weakens, our Jewish self esteem is diminished undermining our ability to see and appreciate our unique mission in this world.    The Kotzke Rebbe explains: The spies had no right to consider how the giants viewed them. As Jews and emissaries for the Jewish people, they should have thought only of their mission, not of what anyone else thought of them.            How many times do we become discouraged because of what we feel or perceive that other people think?

When, in that diminished psychological state, if we should be confronted by a difficult challenge, it takes on the hugeness of a giant in our eyes and as such has the power to discourage us from achieving our true potential and fulfilling our destiny.

             How can we overcome this challenge. First we should realize that there is no barrier so  large or overwhelming that we cannot hurdle it,  if it is Hashem’s will  that we do so. The Maraglim saw themselves as grasshoppers. Why grasshoppers? Perhaps to teach us that every challenge gives us the opportunity to choose our direction and destiny in life. When threatened, the grasshopper can either jump back, as did the meraglim who counseled the nation to jump far away from their  “giant” appearing challenges or it can use it powerful hind legs to leap over the obstacle  that lies before it.  From this we can learn a wondrous lesson that when we stand up to a challenge for Hashem’s honor our supernal “legs” of trust and faith “jump up” to the forefront and aid us in leaping over all and any perceived hurdles and barriers.

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ELEVATING THE SOUL – THE DESIGNATION OF THE LEVIIM TODAY

            The eternal Torah, whose every word or even letter is replete with deep meaning and profound impact in our lives, transmits to us elaborately (spanning over one hundred passukim in Parshas Bamidbar, Nasso,  Behaaloscha [and then further in Parshas Korach] (perek 1  passukim 47 – 54; perek 3 : 5-51; perek 4: 1-49, perek 8: 5-26 and 18-21-32) the designation, separation, elevation of  the tribe of Leviim. “The Levities according to their father’s tribe were not counted among them.” – that being the rest of the Jewish Nation.  “Hashem spoke to Moses saying, ‘but you should not count the tribe of Levi, and you shall not take a census of them among the Children of Israel. You shall appoint the Levities over the Mishkan of Ha’edus, over all its utensils and everything that belongs to it”      

                       Rashi, our most illustrious commentator, tells us that the Leviim merited this elevated status because of their loyalty and courage in the incident of the Golden Calf (1:49). / The entire tribe of Levi refused to participate in that sin proving their unswerving dedication to The Creator of the Universe.

              The Ramban further enlightens us – “The task of the Levities was not so much to protect the Mishkan [and Bais HaMigdash] as a militia, but rather to serve as an honor guard, as befits the royal palace” (1:53). / The Jewish people’s task is to be an instrument of recognition of Hashem and His will in this world. Chazal tell us that a true King only assumes status as a ruler if there exists a nation that acknowledges and follows His decrees. / Thus Leviim in all generations are those Jews who steadfastly keep their focus on proper, enthusiastic service of Hashem through His Torah.

                  The Leviim’s duty in the Mishkan/Bais HaMigdash was to assist the Kohanim – among other ways by singing and playing musical instruments as korbonos were brought. Today the sound of  our voices and music, if expressed sincerely, is an inner expression of our soul’s yearning to come close to the Creator. Song also expresses the fact that the total harmony of the universe is under the absolute control and guidance of Hashem.

             The Divine service of Leviim represents the part of each of us that links us forever with our spiritual purpose in this world. Rashi, on the same passuk, tells us: that “from this time on, the Leviim were to be separated from the rest of the nation and elevated to a new status.” The Seforno, (also on this passuk) informs us that: “because the Leviim would be performing their service on behalf of the nation, the rest of the people would have the obligation to support them, by giving them tithes.”

           An Art Scroll commentary explains it thus: “Those who serve the people by filling their responsibilities in the Tabernacle, by teaching the Torah, or by performing any other spiritual tasks are not to be regarded as supplicants. It is national responsibility to provide for those who carry out the spiritual obligations of the rest of the people.”

             The Leviim were counted from one month and upward – with no limit to age indicating that their spiritual mission is not dependent on age or strength (3:15). The Rambam describes the mission of the Leviim in Hilchos Shemittah and Yovel  (13: 12-13) “They are the legion of Hashem, whose task is to serve Him and to teach His Torah and way of life to others.” He adds : “Any who follows the example of the Leviim becomes sanctified as kodesh kodashim, and Hashem will be his portion and heritage for all eternity. In this world, he will merit what befits him, as the Kohanim and Levities merited it.” This status of Levy is conferred for life on all those who totally dedicate their lives to the service of Hashem, independent of age or strength.

                A wonderful concept derived from the Leviim’s designation is brought to light by the Midrash (Bamidbar Rabbah 3:7). The infant Leviim  counted from one month old, surely did not participate in the guarding the Mishkan, so the Leviim should have been counted from when they began their service. However, Hashem wished to reward them greatly for their loyal service, so when they reached thirty years old and began to serve, He retroactively rewarded them  as if they had indeed served from the age of one month.

           This concept should also apply to our own lives. Meaning, if we totally dedicate our time, energy and potential from now on to the service of Hashem, we may merit to have our entire lives credited as Divine service. How much hope and opportunity this teaching offers us. We can no longer say it’s too late, or I have already wasted so much of my life. If we start today with an absolute dedication, we can be credited with lifelong service.

                 Now let us look at a few classical commentaries on the names and purposes of the three sons of Levi, who each were given a unique role in the carrying of the Mishkan. In Bamidbar 3:17 it is stated – “These were the sons of Levi, by their names: Gershon, Kohath, and Merari.” However in 4:4 it is stated “This is the work of the sons of Kohath in the Ohel Moed: the most holy.” The commentators explain that Kohath was later listed first before Gershon because he was designated to carry the most holy parts of the Mishkon, meaning that he had become elevated because of his assignment.

                  What can we learn and apply to our own lives from this part of the Torah? Some of the great Cassidisher masters teach us that Gershon, Kehas and Merari represent three varying but proper approaches available to us depending on our spiritual level, when we are confronted by challenging circumstances. There is the level of the tzaddik, whose service is so unswerving that no temptation lures him away from his steadfast dedication to the Creator. This is symbolized by the sons of Kehas, who carried the Aron Hakodesh miraculously on their shoulder – like tzaddkim who don’t use the desires or objects of this world for their own personal pleasure, but only for Divine service.

                     The next level of avoda is practiced by those stay at a distance from the allurements of the yetzer hora, making ‘spiritual fences’, as alluded to in the name Gershon – separating or divorcing themselves from anything that could blemish their proper service.

                      Then there are those times when, for all of us,  the righteousness of  Kohath or the protective attributes of Gershon are not within our reach. At such times we must use the inner strengths represented by Merari. Literally the name means “bitter”, and it is at those times, when life seems bleak, when one feels helpless and besieged, that the proper avodah is to cry out sincerely to our Creator. Merari was assigned  to carry the heaviest parts of the Mishkan teaching us that the proper path of service during difficult times, as hinted to in his name, is to accept the yoke of Heaven with sincere repentance.

              When the Jewish nation was asked: “Mi la-Hashem…?” the entire Shevet Levi stepped forward. May we all merit to “step forward” thereby bringing closer the Final Redemption, soon in our days.

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